rabu-hime~ ♥ ([info]yohietastic) wrote,
@ 2006-08-22 22:15:00
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add [info]mikan_hime please? ♥

I got attached to that journal, and I don't know. I'm not really trying to avoid drama anymore; it's just a move. But to be honest, I'm .. afraid to move journals? xD; I don't want to lose any of my friends on here.

But it's all up to you. I'll understand if you don't want me in your lives anymore. ♥

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[info]xero_mizuno
2007-02-05 08:04 am UTC (link)
.......... I don't quite understand.

I still refuse to believe you.

I refuse to believe you suddenly 'lied about everything.' People may be good actors, but I don't think you would act THIS much just to turn on me at the last minute.

Your testimony? I refused to delete it. I still don't know why. This is fucking ridiculous. I used to think of you as a good friend. I understand if you think what I did was wrong, but it's all over and done with, and everything's been solidified.... it's not going anywhere.

Honestly, I wish we could be friends. But with the way you were originally going on, it doesn't seem possible.

I'm not going to beg you to be friends with me. I DO wish we could be friends again, as much fun as we used to have talking to each other. Do you even remember that anymore? I can't say I trust that you do... but maybe you actually do.

I'll tell you the truth: I miss talking to you. I regret seeing you turn against me as you did, justified as it was. But, I'm a human. I make mistakes. Sometimes more than others, but they're still mistakes... why should I be hated for the mistakes I made that were remedied? It's gone and in the past...

I understand if you never want to speak to me again, even after all this time. But... I just wanted you to know that if you ever want to speak to me again... =\ I would still gladly be your friend. Because I refuse to believe you hated me out of ANY respect. There's no way you would have faked your testimony like that... we had far too much fun talking for that to be true.

.....Yeah, that's all. Goodbye. Yohie. If you ever want to talk about this... you know where to reach me.

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[info]mikan_hime
2007-02-06 06:17 am UTC (link)
Then add me. :|

I don't have much of an excuse for my actions, really. I guess I'm at a loss of words, but not because this has shocked me, but because I just can't think clearly at this moment. Could be lack of sleep or the huge amounts of stress and work, but either way.

If you have enough courage to come back to me and write something like this, then I'm sure you have enough courage to add this journal, right? I'll add you, of course. And we can start talking all over again. We can start over from the beginnings. We can even go back to where we introduce each other, if we have to/you want to.

That's... I guess that's all I have to say. I'll probably explain things much better once I get my head cleared and all of this depression/anxiety out of the way.

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[info]xero_mizuno
2007-02-11 08:05 am UTC (link)
..... =\ I have to admit, I half-didn't expect this.

I just... miss the conversations. I mean, the first time I even IMed you, we had a blast, didn't we? I don't really have as much fun talking to many other people. Re-introductions aren't needed. I'm just trying to get things back to the way they were. If that's even possible. Maybe things would have worked out better if I hadn't been such a thick-headed bastard to Kati >.<, but she forgave me and others shouldn't've judged me, even though I have no say whatsoever on the matter.

Cheesy or not as this may sound, it just wouldn't be the same without being able to talk to you again.

I'll add you. Sorry for the 5-day delay, I forgot to check back (checked email and found it).

You're not blocked on any of my AIMs, and I don't have BL-Only on, so if you're on feel free to IM me. If I"m away (which I'll be, most of tomorrow), leave a message.

BY THE WAY. You're still the only person on my LJ except for my best friend and girlfriend to actually call me on my cellphone. Well, besides Tifa. For some reason others won't call me o.O

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